Saturday, July 18, 2009!
HandWritten on; 12:04 AM
as university draws near, i find myself going to school alot. and especially now with the addition of pharm rag dance, thats 4 days per week of my weeks from now. i cant take it everything's moving too fast i dun have enough time to think and reflect and decide how and where i should take stuff from the moment, im so overwhelmed its a bad thing im feeling paranoid all over again like every single day especially when i meet new people i seriously need to calm down and take a deep breath but every single day is packed and packed and more packed with stuff and stuff and more stuff im dying from the stress of needing to be at too many places at the same time and im dead tired of thinking about how people feel how people will think and what they'll think about me and my actions and my behaviours im so tired of being uptight & the worst thing is i cant find people like me whom i can hang out/complain with i think my life is seriously going to suck and im dead serious about this, i pray things will become better i pray for me to be happy i pray for this world to become less superficial and to look beyond and to be nicer and better people.
i only want to hang out with og slytherin & the dancers & my old friends before these few weeks and stay in my comfort zone. life sucks.